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  STEPHEN!!!

Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you said you love me
What's that about?
You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...

JULY 29 EVERYONE!!! BEST SUMMER EVER JUST WATCH!

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Ran into an old friend yesterday Caught me by surprise when he called my name He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past Talked for a while, I smiled and then Said that he was seeing somebody and Told me this was gonna last Showing me her photograph And all the feelings I thought were gone Came rushing back to me at once Tried to smile and hide the way I felt But I was thinking to myself Truth is: I never got over you Truth is: Wish I was standing in her shoes Truth is: And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still in love with you Truth is: I never should have let you go Truth is: And it's killing me cuz now I know Truth is: And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still in love with you We reminisce on the way things used to be Shed a couple laughs, shed some memories Talked about the things that changed Some for good and some for bad Then he said good-bye and he paid for lunch Promised that we'd always keep in touch Grabbed my bags and grabbed my thoughts, walked away and that was that Now the truth is it hurts but I know that the fault is mine ‘Cuz I let him go Tried to get over it but it's messed up he's not mine (Because I know) I just gotta be honest, I guess, I-I guess, I’m still in love, in love, in love

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This song reminds me of Cody!  maybe I do want him back.

See I dont, know why,
I liked you so much
I gave you all of my trust
I told you, I loved you now It's all down the drain,
You put me through pain
I wanna let you know that i feel Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw them out,
Fuck all the kisses they didnt mean jack Fuck you, you Hoe i dont want you back!You thought that you could keep this Shit from me,
Ya burnt Bitch, i heard the story,
Ya played me,
Ya even gave him head now
Ya askin for me back ya,
It's just another act look elsewhere cuz ya done with me 
Fuck what i said it dont mean Shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw them out
Fuck all the kisses they didnt mean jack Fuck you, you hoe i dont want you back Ya questioned did I care you,
could ask anyone, I even said ya were my great one,
Now its over but i do admit im sad,
it hurts real bad i cant sweat that cause i loved a hoe Fuck what i said it dont mean Shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw them out Fuck all those kisses they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe i dont want you back

Omg.... nick better want to do somthing tmrw! or i swear urg he is pissing the shit out of me! OMG!!!!! I just hate it so much! Well, I just might break up with him soon... cuz we dont really talk much ne more. i dont even know if he is busy or wat. As much as I dont want to say this but I do..... Well, I really want to get a hold of cody! Because I miss him soo much! I thought that I would never miss him ne more....but i rele do... maybe because nick is an asshole lol i dunno....but i rele need to talk to cody!

Well G2G!!!!!

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"I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took, Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay You wear me out What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay) I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what they mean (I'm not okay) So be a joke and look, another line without a hook I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look! I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay You wear me out Forget about the dirty looks The photographs your boyfriend took You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed I'm okay I'm okay!

In the middle of a gun fight... In the center of a restaurant... They say, "Come with your arms raised high!" Well, they're never gonna get me, And like a bullet through a flock of doves... To wage this war against your faith in me, Your life...will never be the same. On your mother's eyes, say a prayer...say a prayer! Now, but I can't And I don't know How we're just two men as God had made us, Well, I can't...well, I can! Too much, too late, or just not enough of this Pain in my heart for your dying wish, I'll kiss your lips again. They all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost, My cellmate's a killer, they made me do push-ups (in drag) But nobody cares if you're losing yourself...am I losing myself?! Well, I miss my mom, Will they give me the chair, Or lethal injection, or swing from a rope if you dare; Ah, nobody knows...all the trouble I've seen! To your room... What they ask of you Will make you want to say, "So long..." Well, I don't remember, Why remember...YOU?! Do you have the keys to the hotel?! Cause' I'm gonna string this motherfucker on fire! (FIRE!!) Life is but a dream for the dead, And well I, I won't go down by myself, But I'll go down with my friends. Now now now now...now now now...now now now!!

Make it a note to take your pills," she said "I'll leave them on the table in the same brown bottle you know." She said, "It's good to have you home." The second I smelt the scent of my own house I said it. "Send just one postcard home, And call as often as you can to tell us how it goes. Let us know." "Make it a note to make a point." he said That's good advice I'll take it Now I'll start to use it to know Sentence long messages From me to you to let you know I'm ok I'll let you know I'm out making you proud So don't wait up, I'll be home soon I'm out of town for now You're what makes it home that I'll come back to "Make it a note to take your time," they begged "Take baby steps to everywhere, and come home in one piece to us." You know, it's so good to be home And know that when I hit the road I'm thinking of you both, I miss you "Send just one postcard home, And call as often as you can to let us know how it goes. Let us know." I'm out making you proud So don't wait up, I'll be home soon I'm out of town for now You're what makes it home that I'll come back to Thank you for everything I'm out making you proud So don't wait up, I'll be home soon I'm out of town for now You're what makes it home that I'll come back to

          I got the talk when I was younger And understood as I recall, they hadn't mentioned this at all. My heart was racing like a sprinter That tripped and fell In love with a boy just for tonight and that's all I've got big, big plans And they've got to mean something more than just once I just don't know what I want I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married And you're all mine now Tonight is the night we've been waiting for all our lives Or maybe for just tonight I got the call when I was older Yeah and I understood If it happens then it happens and that's all My arms the hose and you're the fire Out of control and I've got put you out Before there's nothing left at all I've got big, big plans And they've got to mean something more than just once I just don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I just don't know what I want I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married And you're all mine now Tonight is the night we've been waiting for all our lives Or maybe for just mine So get your ass up cause you're in no hurry like I am now I'm getting older and older all of the time or maybe for just tonight And the next part is the hardest To admit and explain but I've got to get it right She said "I'll chew you up and spit you out like all them. I'm gonna put you right back in my mouth You're gonna stay like that for now" I will always love you

                Was happiness a fad? Or was it in the lost in found again behind the issues. It might not be so bad We're all addicted to our tragedy, I guess it's what it had to be. It's not meant to hurt you but let me assure you It's not what I said but intentions you've read...I’ll never take part in the grown population. Or waste my time with further education. To get what we know, is just a big show. Where they want to control. So chained and frustrated.It’s all so complicated. All I know is I’ve heard this all before. Reality’s a bore .  You ask me to believe it.  Something they provide. Can’t bring myself to. You want me to. This is who we are and nothings gonna change. Never the less am I dressed for the occasion, it's number 32 now here's the situation. How can we still succeed. Taking what we don’t need?